In the Hands of a Healing Lord

I gave my blog site up to the Lord and told him that if He didn't want me writing on this subject, that he wouldn't bless it. Many people, who are the completely ignorant and narrow minded viewpoint, accuse me and Vyckie of No Longer Quivering and other home school cult expose' writers, of not being healed or not forgiving. Basically, of viewing the blogosphere as simply an outlet to vent, rage, and prolong bitterness.

Hey, that's their opinion. I suppose I could grant that they are entitled to it. Maybe.

But I am a particularly open-minded person and am quite willing to listen to what others have to say (remember this). I also refrain from judgement on another person's heart and life until I have met that person and know what they have been through. So to those who think that they have me figured out and that they can simply box me into the ideology of not having been healed, bitter, whatever: Please don't frequent this blog site.

This blogsite is not for those who want an opinion and say-so on why they think homeschooling is great, grand and supercalifragilisticexpealidotious. Most of the people who think that homeschooling is the answer to society, are coming from the viewpoint of the parent who is currently homeschooling their child. What I am suggesting is that if you have never lived it on the other end, please don't jump to conclusions that your child is happy and even enjoys their homeschooling experience. Perhaps they do, but perhaps they also don't.

This blog site is for those of us children of The Movement who are trying to recover from our isolated, fundamentalist and cult-like upbringing. Some of us have been through a tremendous amount of abuse, and a disgustingly high number of us have been sexually abused and subjected to incestuous family relationships. I write for the victims, not for those who feel the need to defend their stance to me.

In the post, Rethinking, I stated that I was ready to fold in the towel and quit. Something happened. Right when I was ready to quit, my blog readership skyrocketed. Sure its not a great as some, but seriously, it was enough of an answer for me. I received several emails that week, from other victims begging me to continue writing because what I have to say is helping them sort through their past. And then I got a couple of leads on my manuscript.

I love the way God works. The moment you lose yourself in Him, that's the moment He gives it back to you.

I am in the hands of a healing God. Nearly ten years of counseling later, heart wrenching issues dealt with and sorted through, some relationships ended, and forgiveness granted, I must say that those who feel I have not moved on or that I am bitter or not healed is disingenuous at best. Most likely they are complete judgmental snobs who really aren't entitled to an opinion on my personal life. In my experience, those are just the kind of people who actually have the most to work through and are living in a state of denial over their own hearts and issues.

I know that part of what comes with the territory on explaining to others the dangers and pitfalls of homeschooling, and helping those who are recovering from the abuse of fundamentalist/cultic parents is that there will be those who disagree with me and feel that they somehow have knowledge that I haven't heard or that they feel entitled to a judgment call on my personal life. That's fine. But that doesn't mean that I agree, or that I approve of their need to judge me as a person. And it doesn't mean that I won't use my outlet to defend myself either.