An Olive Branch

A little piece of me inside is dying, or felt as if it has died. Many of you are wondering why all of the posts on my blog, the work of my hands and the healing of my own heart, have been removed.

Clicking each one of my posts, going down the row, and selecting "Save as Draft" made the tears trickle slowly as they dripped inconspicuously onto the keyboard. Click, click, click...

The truth is that my father has become beligerant and both of my parents are insistent of their need to control me, and yet my primary desire is for healing. After feeling a heavy burden to confront both of my parents one final time, I am attempting to do what I don't want to do-yet what is being asked of me. And that is to take down my blog for a period of time until some of the murky waters can be dealt with. And although I have done so personally, my parents have not. And so in the interest of praying for their own healing, and hoping that my taking this down will make it easier for them to confess their sin against their daughter, Dispelled is no longer in circulation to the public.

I was asked to take it down and voluntarily forfeit my own right of free speech in an attempt to communicate to my parents, and those who are intimately involved in this situation (or continuing Soap Opera), a humble heart, bent on a desire for healing. And if my taking it down helps my parents to that end, then that is a good thing.

The truth is that I feel like my parents have won. And as the victim, I have lost. Again. But I know that God has better and brighter things in store for me and that I must put aside my own rights to pursue that priceless gift called forgiveness and the priceless reward called healing. I am still a work in progress, and I will continue to write. But in the spirit of humility and out of a Spirit-led initiative I am offering an Olive-Branch of peace and one of the dearest things to my own heart: To help others through the pain and to help myself through the pain by writing.

So dear readers, I bid you a temporary farewell. However, don't be shy about friending me on facebook. And I will be back, and in the words of Martha Stewart, "I will be bigger and better than ever."